Praveen Kumar 
lying awake in the middle of the night when the world is almost dead with the rain drops dripping one by one it feels as if the sky is raining my tears;
fear, that's what keeping me awake, as I close my eyes and try to slam it shut, it begins to creep and crawl all over my senses, starting with the most obvious and branching out to all corners of the mind;
why? what? how? so many questions, yet very few answers, as the mind spins its intricate web over my confidence, leaving me high and dry, gasping for breath and keeping me wide awake;
as I lay on my back with my hands under my head, staring at the darkened ceiling, uncertain and confused;
it was not supposed to be like this, no one mentioned a word about this, staring vacantly at the darkened ceiling, I could not sleep;
trying not to lose myself, my mind keeps thinking about the if's and the probabilities, without a care about the present;
and in the end, it was all a little too much to take, as the fear of the unknown surround me from all sides, and darkness creeping its way up slowly and steadily, the nightmares loom larger and bigger, blurring everything else before I collapsed into a restless sleep;
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There is no such thing as pure pleasure; some anxiety always goes with it. - Ovid
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17 comments
Praveen- there’s more to life to think of, than fearing of the unknown. But this poem expressed so much the fears inside the troubled heart and mind. Its like being paranoid of something that gives u fear but wasn’t real. You have expressed well the feeling of someone who is afraid of whats going on with his/he life, but do wakes up before it became a nightmare.
Beautiful poem! this is exactly how I go to sleep every night! Thanks for sharing.I have written a very nice poem I would like to share it with you.
hey.. i like ya poem.. i know whts on ya mind.. im also a writter.. i too hv written a lot o stuffs like this kind.. contact me..
and keep on goin .. but always beware of the life u put yaslf unto.. cheers..
Your words nicely reflect how you were feeling. Keep it up.
It was 2am in the morning when i am rading this poem and this exactly depicted my mind. Very nice one
Superb!!
This is great. Really expressive of what we all sometimes feel when we look on anxiously towards the future.
dis poem truly spoke ma words wat i hav felt but was unable to express…n very few would ever care to go deep down and look for this dark side which is unexplicable but still exist somwhere…its excellent poem and very well expressed….
i thought i was the only one who has those thoughts!!!
i’d love to read smthing about happiness for you 🙂
This really spoke to me. I’ve suffered with an anxiety disorder for the last couple of years and this totally sums up the irrational thought patterns you lie awake thinking about. Love it
This is what i feel like at night… Love it 😀
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that’s really really good. Keep it up! and Thanks for sharing this! A really great help! I will use this in our poem recital. Thanks again! 🙂
this is a very deep poem…that’s exactly how a lonely and stressed person would feel…every word describes every lonely emotion… This poem is so very true!!!! it made me cry and think of all my emotions… Love it
Dear Praveen,
I have been trying to find out who wrote “Train of Life.” I have found two websites that attest to the poem having been written by Marv Harding. I would like to know if you can prove you wrote the poem, such as having it accepted for publication in your name in some journal, or on some legit poetry or litereary website. I need to cite my sources if I quote a poem for my Graduate class in poetry. My professor, and all at the school are extremely concerned about plagiarism. If I can’t confirm who wrote the poem I can’t use it for the essay I am writing as the final project for a master’s class. Please contact me through the email address above, in a timely manner if possible. I am also checking the box below to get followup comments.
Thank you for your help, and I appologize if I have made a mistake in attributing the poem to Marv Harding.
Hi Cindy, the poem is written by Marv Harding.
i love this poem it’s very dark and emotional