Fear of Loss

I am scared When I laugh at The silliest of the jokes you crack.   I am scared When you look at an old man on the road And say, ‘Heeeyyyy dude’ And I see myself laughing out loud.   I am scared When you say you would walk a 500 miles And fall at my doorstep just to see me.   I am scared When you say You want to make me happy And see me smiling always.   I am scared When you surprise me with your gifts And I treasure them above my life.   I am scared When my best buddy says - “You are flying high”   I am scared When you say you were a flirt But when it comes to me, ‘It’s different’   I am scared When I spend more time with you And I see myself changing my routines.   I am scared When you say am beautiful And you take pride in presenting me.   I am scared When others take pleasure in seeing us together And say we are made for each other.   I am scared When we just paint the city Roaming on the streets holding hands.   I am scared When you say I am your princess And steal a smile from me.   I am scared When I find myself Going out of my way just to meet you.   I am scared When I see myself cooking for you Even before we started living.   I am scared When my mom sees me blushing When I think of you.   I am scared When others say they see a change And ask me ‘Is it love?’   I am scared When you say you know a pretty girl And she is close to you.   I am scared When you say that you just can’t wait For the day to make love.   I am scared when my heart skips Every time my phone beeps.   I am scared When you kiss me so passionately And I am just not able to say a ‘No’ to you.   I am scared When you say that I am the woman of your dreams And you would go back and hunt for me If you had a time-turner.   I am scared When I miss you Even if I don’t see you for a day.   I am scared When you penetrate my mind With your gaze and read what’s in.   I am scared As I know you are my ultimate man And that I have finally found you.   I am scared Of too many things That I am just not able to relish the moments I’m with you.   I am scared If god would be generous enough To let me have you just this once For a lifetime!