A stranger in paradise

sitting in the coffee shop
on a cold and rainy afternoon
clutching a cup of hot cappuccino
i watch the world go by

sporting a couple of tattoos
with a stern face
i stare at all -
young and the old
that walk past

used to laugh at
used to make fun of
people peering from the inside of a cafe
lazily killing time
seemingly doing nothing

my ego that once clouded me
just ran away in the face of adversity
my pride rooted out
and now replaced by humility

now watching the world go by
from inside the same cafe
all the hurt inside
hidden so well
i seem strong enough on the surface
i seem like a hardened warrior

fear written all over my eyes
i was scared
but no one would listen
cause no one cared

now, sitting in an obscure coffee shop
abandoned in my fame
struggling within
i sit here

i sit here wondering
what the hell is wrong (with me!)
loved by all one day
loathed by everyone, the next

with no place to call home
i wander lonely as a cloud
going nowhere
being everywhere

when my time comes
forget the wrong i may have done
forget the tears i made you shed
just remember me
as the stranger in paradise
fighting hell within

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note: initially inspired by an article i read over yday + real life in general :)

The midnight battle

The midnight battle

with eyes half closed
i slowly scan the room
for any signs of activity

lights switched off
the sun still hidden from view
beneath the big black mountains in the horizon
the moon powerless in its fight against the darkness
stuck in one corner of the sky destined to its fate

it had been a long stuggle
a long and hard escape from the vampires of the land
hungry and tired from the day long survival game
i had finally succumbed

with eyes half closed
i slowly scan the room
for any signs of activity

hungry and thirsty
i try to crawl across the room
i try to escape from this “dark dungeon”
where i now lay
in search of food

hungry and exhausted
unable to crawl away from the room
i slowly reach inside the backpack
to quell the pangs of hunger

a high-speed chase
and a constant battle of wits
had left me with very little time (to restock)
had left me with nothing but empty candy wrappers

unable to put up a resistance (anymore)
tiredness and exhaustion taking its toll
i finally give in
i finally fall into darkness once again!

 

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note: One of those classic scenarios, that most of us face regularly. Tired and exhausted after a hard day’s work, you come home and fall asleep asap. Eventually at some point in the night, you wake up hungry. Half asleep and half awake, you search for any leftovers/snacks around you. Finding nothing and tired to get out of bed to “prepare” something, you fall back asleep once again :)

image courtesy: google

Love is just another word!

fell in love
when we were young
we fell in love

all day long
and all night along
everywhere we went
as one

all around us
a different game
played itself everyday
a different love
every day
and every night

just you and me
together
every day
every night

a  game of loyalty we were playing
a game that just stopped one day
when you left it in the middle
to play the other game

heart-broken
losing sleep
i decided to “leave” this garden
i lost myself

the garden that once bloomed with all things beautiful
now lay covered in weeds and shrubs
the forest that once surrounded us
has taken over the garden of eden

years later
losing track of where i was going
i stumble back into this garden
stuck in a time warp
in a dilapidated state

i step inside
start clearing it up
i fell in love
when love was just another word
i played a game
with an unworthy opponent

now years later
with time doing its trick
i step back inside this garden
to reclaim it once again

what i left years ago
i stumbled onto it by chance
now i come back
to find myself once again!

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Inside the smile of a woman!

life was on a roll
been a long time
since clouds of chaos appeared on the horizon

end of the day
we put our feet up
sit back, relax
marvel at how things have changed

gone are the dark days
gone are sorrows that plagued our lives
gone are the arguments that once took up all our time
life was great

everyday, it was the same
everyday, i pick you up from your work
spend 10 mins in the church
spend 10 mins in the temple

it was the same
day after day
for the last 5 years

until one day,
at the exact time, just like everyday
i wait to pick you up from your work

5 mins
i wait
10 mins
maybe work was hectic
30 mins
maybe a meeting
45 mins
my patience now gives way to anxiety
without wasting more time
i walk/run into your office
short of breath
anxiety/fear written all over my face
i stumble into the reception
only to find you left work long time ago

anxiety now replaced by worry
5 years we shared everything
from a needle to an airplane
everything under the sun

i run to the nearest police station
give in all the details
hoping they have an answer
hoping and praying nothing happened to you

more than 12 hours has passed
no word
with the night at its darkest
i rush back home
hoping its just a game of hide and seek

the lights are out
the blinds are shut tight
just as we left them in the morning

leaving the door open
i wait near the phone
expecting you would call

with no one to call
with no one to worry for us
we lived in this high rise city
all alone
just you and me
orphaned at birth
fate brought us together
you and me 5 years ago

now,
with the new day dawning
i sit here, all alone
hoping its just a game you are playing
praying you would call and ask me to pick you up

with time slowly ticking away
a phone call i did not want to hear
brought me back to senses
gathering courage
praying it shouldnt be
i accompany the law
to the hospital
where you now lay
wrapped in a white cloth
from top to bottom

life was on a roll
now stopped abruptly in its path
the flow of happiness
now cut short without a reason
life just stood still
life just stopped abruptly

slowly, gathering courage
i lift the cloth off your face
the smile that “adorned” your face
24 hours ago
is all that i see
before i am pulled back

the smile that brought us a wealth of happiness
the smile that i always saw in your face
how i wish, i peered insde the smile
if only you had confided to me
if only i had asked you
if only…..

the smile that brought us together
5 years ago
now brings us together once again

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no notes - no explanations.
sometimes less said the better.
multiple meanings - but has one core meaning :)
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