--- title: A State of Mind date: 2011-02-08T12:00:53Z modified: 2011-02-08T12:00:53Z permalink: "https://www.poetryoflife.com/a-state-of-mind/" type: post status: publish excerpt: "" wpid: 1123 categories: - Life Poems featured_image: "https://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/A-State-of-Mind-Voices.jpg" featured_image_alt: A State of Mind - Voices author: Praveen Kumar timestamp: 2011-02-08T12:00:53Z tags: - Life Poems --- i have come a long way![A State of Mind - Voices](http://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/A-State-of-Mind-Voices.jpg "A State of Mind - Voices") to a distant place far far away from where i used to live and from what i used to do; Life is a rosy [dream](https://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/wp-mfa-exports/post/its-just-like-a-dream.md), happiness and joy aplenty, everything that i wanted and everything is as i had hoped for; Everything is as i had hoped for, everything is as i had longed for, everything is except for the turmoil that plagues me inside every day; I sleep, i smile, i laugh, i play, i eat and i live in a constant state of [fear](https://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/wp-mfa-exports/post/fear-of-loss.md), a fear that i did not ask for, and one that i did not longed for; [killing me](https://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/wp-mfa-exports/post/dont-kill-me-mamma.md) from inside, silently screaming for it to stop, i am devoured by my own inner self, day in and day out; haunting and taunting me, time and time again, they run helter and skelter in the deep recess of my mind; it’s just a state of [mind](https://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/wp-mfa-exports/post/all-in-the-mind.md), i tell myself hoping to [erase](https://www.poetryoflife.com/wp-content/uploads/wp-mfa-exports/post/erase-me.md) these thoughts of fear that hinges on the edge of my happiness; Trapped inside my own mind, eclipsed by my fear, tears weep without a choice hoping to vanquish (flood) this struggle within;